Be BIG
i want to be big
but I can't dig
myself out of this shyt hole i fell into
the moment i fell for you,
you put me through
an up and down cycle
with no spin
that created this sin left behind,
filth and grim still clinging hold
even though
bleach was applied
to wipe memories clean
of you
and me
and we,
you see,
i remember the tale of old
and it left me cold,
with a battered and torn soul ...
whoa,
boy did you have a hold on me,
but i plan to be better,
since i was able to weather
the storm you brought into my life,
had me thinking i would be your wife,
but thank goodness for sacrifice,
and letting go,
thanks for show-
ing me the real side of you,
the side i thought would never be true ...
i am meant to be big and you knew,
so you tried to pursue
me into a failure of reflective succession of positive downfalls,
you had me all
and had a ball
with depicting this train wreck of an encounter,
you were such a coward
to hold on when the whispers told me i couldn't stay,
i couldn't stay,
and away I finally went
and since
I have been able to move
I'm bolder now,
dug in the dirt and found my crown,
a lil dusty,
but i'm wearing it now ...
and though the road tough,
i'm still gonna be big,
you were the momentum i needed to dig
into me
and see
the possibilities
of viewing my own reflection
without your interjection,
never needed to be anyone's selection
but my own ...
my how I have grown ...
guess some gratitude can be shown
for pushing instead of pulling me
into a greater existence
of who God set forth,
I guess I now understand your worth ...
the truth of your deceit,
the pressure you placed to uproot this tree
from simplicity into tranquility,
such serenity,
yup I will be
big.
Thanks.
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